Posted by
PolitaChick on Friday, January 26, 2007 9:20:54 AM
Yes, we’ve all heard this Cinderella song! What a romantic illusionary ideal that our hearts can speak to our heads as we sleep! Well if there is any truth to this then I must admit, my heart has some messed up wishes! Give me a second and I will elaborate.
Throughout the history or civilization, dreams have fascinated mankind. They are thought to prophesize, to predict the future or to explain the unexplainable. Now, I’m not going to get into a deep philosophically or theological debate about the significance of dreams, in fact I want to talk about the opposite—the practicality of dreams.
I am a vivid dreamer. My dreams are very real and often have a greater impact on my mood and outlook than the events that happen in real life. It is actually kind of sad to think I am more affected by my dreams and feel more alive because of my dreams than reality. But my dreams are not fantasies or illusions of grandeur that would put my on Cloud 9 all day. I am a practical and efficient dreamer.
In my work, I do a lot of writing. Often times, I will write the preliminary draft of documents as I sleep. I will organize things, plan events and just get things done. So what does this mean? Offer we some amateur psychological analysis and help me interpret these deep-seeded wishes my heart is longing to have granted.
But wait—there’s more! I also have a regular individual that frequents my dream world. This person is shows up in one of two behavioral states and in one of two appearances. This individual is someone that used to work at the same place I did years ago! He did not work in the same department as I did; he was at the top of the totem poll and I was like a weed in the basement. In all honesty, I knew his name, face and that he was a big shot but this person never looked at me much less said two words to me.
Now for some reason, this person appears in my dreams almost every night—whether it is his face or not, the person in my dream is supposed to be him. When he is there, he is either mean to me or drunk.
As a said regardless of the face, the character in my dream is him. He is either mean or condescending. I am unable to please him or do anything right no matter how hard I try! Everything I do is wrong! Or he is drunk, falling all over the place and I have to take care of him.
So what do this mean—that I am a glutton for punishment? Have a fear of failure or of disappointment? Maybe I am just unimaginative and that’s why I can’t break away from my work. Is my life so consumed with work that I have nothing else to think about?
Despite what deep dark desires my heart is trying to communicate to my head, I do like that I can get some of my work done as I sleep—it makes for much smoother and more productive days. The creepiest thing about this however, it that just about every night, I dream about someone that I have never had a conversation with! It’s not romantic or fantastical. Heck, I have no idea if the voice I hear is even close to the real thing because lord knows the face changes!
I wonder if I am a visitor in anyone’s dreams. Do I effect someone’s day through their sub-conscience? I doubt it. But this person does effect my day, my life and has no idea! In the end maybe it all comes back to Cinderella, and I am just trying to my chores done so I don’t have to face the wrath of my evil step-sisters. Hmmm…